It sucks that at 52 years old I don't feel loved unconditionally I don't feel like I can tell people what I want to say how I want to say it and without having to worry about if somebody's going to take offense and not talk to me again or not let me see grandkids or anything to that affect I can't feel bad because then it hurts everybody else's feelings and I just I'm tired of being the rock I don't want to be a rock anymore I don't want to do it I'm sick and tired of it and I just feel like nobody truly cares about me and how I feel. The one person who will listen and is understanding and will always love me no matter what and won't judge is Momma and I'm not going to have her much longer. If I try to talk to anyone else I'll be asked 50 questions and and basically told I have no business feeling that way it don't feel that way or they try arguing with me about how I feel. I just want to sleep for days. I don't want my Momma to die!!! My heart is shattered!!! I'm scared to not have her here. Who am I going to lean on and talk to??? It sucks that I don't feel like there is any family that I can tell my feelings too and know I won't be judged or pushed away.
